I dropped to 196, but then stumbled a little – I ate for emotional comfort yesterday at lunch. Fortunately, I was able to minimize the damage rent by the huge burrito – I didn’t eat dinner, and didn’t eat the entire burrito. It was still a little disappointing to have exhibited that behavior – fortunately, because I am now aware of emotional eating impulses, this becomes an isolated instance, not a pattern.
Speaking of emotional eating, I’ve noticed something interesting – often I’ll have an emotional crave, but it’s not hooked into eating. It’s like an empty craving – where I used to respond to the crave with “I need a hamburger”, it’s now “Wow, I have a craving for something, but I’m not sure what.” Absolutely fascinating. Until yesterday, I had not responded with eating; even then, I was able to make a conscious choice instead of the habitual impulsive responses I used to have.
Exercise is gearing up – almost every day, I’m either playing racquetball, riding the bike or running. With volleyball season coming up, I’ll have another enjoyable activity. That’s another fascinating change – exercise is actually enjoyable now. I should have done this life change stuff earlier!
